Puppy Love?

uch a wasted day today.


woke up, did practically nothing for about 2 hours, then slept again till now.
slept in total probably about… over 14 hours…?


and nothings changed. still feel the same as yesterday pretty much.
still dont feel like talking to anyone. i dont even know why i feel so down right now. :(



Leng called me while i was asleep, i woke up. picked up and talked for about a bit. but i was a tad tired. that like feeling you get when you wake up, that you just want to sleep.. yeah… that feeling. so hung up and went back to sleep. Jenny called maybe an hour later and asked what i wanted. i wasnt really paying any attention. but… i think she chose the right one hopefully.

Just dont pick the ugly one jenny. lol.


Didnt really want to talk to her for long, because i knew she was with Aaron. Dont really want to talk to her at all when shes around Aaron, just because of past experiences i guess. He says he doesnt care, but it still feels like he does.. sorry Jenny, not your fault.



i said that i was going to read the road code today, since i might as well re sit that stupid test for my learners, im 17 and i still havent got it. :( need to get it soon, but really didnt do anything. this was suppose to be my homework day, since Jenny and Aaron were out. and i really wasnt going to do anything at all. But i didnt end up doing anything, as usual. My lazy self.

i thought that sleeping could make me feel better, but really nothing has changed. Grandma called in the morning, knew she was going to ask dad for yum cha. like my dad is, he accepted and tried to drag me with him. phone was on charger, and i really wasnt even in the mood to go. Definately would not go without my phone. regret not going a bit now. but oh well… always tomorrow, from memory hes going tomorrow as well? but maybe not now.

im suppose to go to town with everyone tomorrow, well everyone apart from aaron since hes busy with his chinese school. but i dont know now… if i really feel like it or not. still havent confirmed anything or anything. Thought that i might go to Jenny’s house tomorrow and learn how to make those stars so i can get a head start, just incase i dont finish in time. If shes not busy with anything that is.



Maybe i should go… tomorrow, its friends that i havent been with for a long time. and being with them might make me feel better… even though all i know that we will do is…

-Have Lunch
-Pool
-Go Home.

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he saying.. your life change in a moment really is true.

got a message from Leng… she was speaking really weird… i didnt really understand what she was on about. Her words were all jumbled up… but in the end i think i got the meaning…


The first thing she said to me.. was sorry.. and i was like.. erm? wtf? then she said i will know tomorrow. So i thought that her brother wants to fight again, but she said no… then went on about me and her… which got me even more lost.. cause why would she be saying sorry?


well… long story short…       

She doesnt want anything to happen. But still want to friends, and something about she won’t go on msn much anymore..

soo umm… i dunno… the way she said it… was kinda like she was dumping me? well not really… but sorta.. but like at first she was like i cant give you anything. I was like… i didnt ask for anything what!?

then more random stuff… about she cant give me anything… then i think she was talking about like… her virginity or something? but i was like… i never asked for anything? and i wasnt even thinking that? well i dont know… her confusion-ness. has got me all lost and i was doing graphics before she talked to me.. now im not.. i better do something.. sigh… and physics.. i dont actually know what shes going about.. the assignment is like random… and wheres jude when you need him..


half of these probably dont make sense… Might have to read really hard… =S


But yeah… she said she still [loves] me.. but nothing will happen or something. But .. in the end.. i told her. that i didnt expect anything to happen between us anyway.. i think she feels better now… i dont know, hard to tell on msn.. >_<”



well so far thats my day. going to top up phone soon, then txt Aaron maybe.. if he still wants to talk that is… thought about it all. Misunderstandings i guess.. and maybe a little too much listening to Pauline. I still dont know how i should feel towards Pauline right now. hmm…


Give me the answer please… =_= someone~!



Didnt dream about anything last night… weird.. well i did… but it was a different one.. can’t really remember it right now though.



UPDATE

what happened… something happened to Leng.. shes different.. i can tell…