uch a wasted day today.
woke up, did practically nothing for about 2 hours, then slept again till now.
slept in total probably about… over 14 hours…?
and nothings changed. still feel the same as yesterday pretty much.
still dont feel like talking to anyone. i dont even know why i feel so down right now. :(
Leng called me while i was asleep, i woke up. picked up and talked for about a bit. but i was a tad tired. that like feeling you get when you wake up, that you just want to sleep.. yeah… that feeling. so hung up and went back to sleep. Jenny called maybe an hour later and asked what i wanted. i wasnt really paying any attention. but… i think she chose the right one hopefully.
Just dont pick the ugly one jenny. lol.
Didnt really want to talk to her for long, because i knew she was with Aaron. Dont really want to talk to her at all when shes around Aaron, just because of past experiences i guess. He says he doesnt care, but it still feels like he does.. sorry Jenny, not your fault.
i said that i was going to read the road code today, since i might as well re sit that stupid test for my learners, im 17 and i still havent got it. :( need to get it soon, but really didnt do anything. this was suppose to be my homework day, since Jenny and Aaron were out. and i really wasnt going to do anything at all. But i didnt end up doing anything, as usual. My lazy self.
i thought that sleeping could make me feel better, but really nothing has changed. Grandma called in the morning, knew she was going to ask dad for yum cha. like my dad is, he accepted and tried to drag me with him. phone was on charger, and i really wasnt even in the mood to go. Definately would not go without my phone. regret not going a bit now. but oh well… always tomorrow, from memory hes going tomorrow as well? but maybe not now.
im suppose to go to town with everyone tomorrow, well everyone apart from aaron since hes busy with his chinese school. but i dont know now… if i really feel like it or not. still havent confirmed anything or anything. Thought that i might go to Jenny’s house tomorrow and learn how to make those stars so i can get a head start, just incase i dont finish in time. If shes not busy with anything that is.
Maybe i should go… tomorrow, its friends that i havent been with for a long time. and being with them might make me feel better… even though all i know that we will do is…
That date and time Jenny refered to before… she told me some stuff about it. ill stop caring now. other it wont count? hope it helps you? you still got 2 years left to wait. lol. dont think you will remember, or maybe things will change..
Still envy what Aaron and Jenny have..
wish me and leng had that?
Even though…. i feel like we won’t work out. she still makes me happy.
Im such an emo :(
its dark outside already. probably cold as well. i wouldnt know. ive got my heater on. I havent really eaten anything today, yet im not hungry. no one sent me a single message on msn :(
feel soooo alone!! guess its my own fault. im going through that Pauline syndrome thing, when you just dont want to talk to anyone. only a few people. Thank you Jenny :) even though you feel asleep on me last night, kind of knew that was going to happen though. lol.
Felt like crying, but couldnt cry, watch this sad bit in Taiyou no Uta (Japanese drama) last night before i slept, around 3am? something like that. tears didnt really come out. but i guess it helped a little bit.
well thats practically the end of my day… i dont think anything else is going to happen.
to sum it all up today… was…
- wake up
- eat, dota (2 hours in total)
- wake up from leng
- wake up from jenny
- wake up and blog.
fun day? [T_T]